Thursday, 30 November 2023

I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING, A DISCUSSION POP




it has a myriad 
of meanings
& intentions
but we all say it -

i dont know what im doing

its depreciating 
its disingenuous
its abdicating responsibility
its an embarrassment buffer
its a humble brag
its an admission of the disconnect
its panic & a call for help

but too i say it to myself 
in a very literal & true sense
acknowledging the channelling 
& duality of creativity

altho an essential caveat 
is appropriate -

when it is finished
i know what i have done

whether i want / deserve / own 
the credit or not
is a problem for another day






  

Wednesday, 29 November 2023

NO & WTF




tea break
tennish
hospital
round the table
steaming mugs
crossword book open
radio two on

& rose pipes up
says
remember when you were at school
& theyd have a day
when theyd put electrodes on your head
& put on those weird films
before doing a quiz ?

no
we say
absolutely not at all

wtf ?








Tuesday, 28 November 2023

FEW CHOSEN WORDS




dont complain
&
dont explain

react as water reacts
as much & no more
than physics decides

thatll keep the mob guessing
& add power
to your few chosen words

as the pixel crowd
turns blue
in kneejerk
meat fart
expression









Monday, 27 November 2023

ON THE ROAD TO HOSPITAL




the red & amber lights
on the hospital lane
where
copper council brick
meets
death row bronze

blend & mate
their burnt palette 
like a painting
like 
a thought

not captured or frozen

only slowed








Sunday, 26 November 2023

EMPTY AS A TYRE IS EMPTY




theres a moment after we wake

a glimpse out of time
empty as a tyre is empty

before we remember It All

& the day
never does
recover

from this absence 
we had 
no chance
to prod








Thursday, 23 November 2023

NO BELL TO EVER RING




to be ill
all the time
an everyday sicknote

well its like 
being sent to the corner
to stare at the wall

no chair allowed
the world alive
behind you








Wednesday, 22 November 2023

SOUVENIR RAM & NASCENT LDR




it takes so long

so far round the sun

to realise the old life is gone

~

& you tell its stories
in the lang syne forest
where memories camp
with souvenir RAM
in the sage shadow
of the khaki mist

~

& acceptance - 
well it feels traitorous  

like trading 
a last day with an old dog
in the park with his ball

for a nascent LDR
with the outer rim







Tuesday, 21 November 2023

ONE MISSED FEED




the government talk about
the duty of the sick to work

casting first stones
out their teflon towers

& it makes me feel
like a panda

judged & monitored
& falling off logs

one missed feed
from extinction






Monday, 20 November 2023

RETIRED GODS, A MOON WALLPAPER POP




 on the paved & indentured
    forest floors
         of 
    steel & glass
        we 
    fight ourselves
   to death & back
    with devil toys
   from the fire sale
         of 
      retired gods
    eager to boost
     their 
  diminishing  
    pension
        in their
      knee rug
        gin cafe
       twilight days









Friday, 10 November 2023

OF GREYEST JURISDICTION




talking to myself
in my head at night
i stumble & lose 
every second word

the plans & the
 ideas
cool & crazy & bullshit
building there of mist 
bolt & dash & career 
away on sudden motorcycles
into
the
brain haze vanishing points 
of greyest jurisdiction

where the universal minds
sorting pools & pulleys & levers
select a more functional chancer 
to try on for size








Thursday, 9 November 2023

MIXED MEDS & PHILIP K DICK




it was a night of dreams

identity drama
in 
the 
dull theft of night

i blame mixed meds
&
the 
philip k dick stories

that i absorb
more thru osmosis
than normal reading

he would approve

~

dreamed i was
squat & stocky
in boxy work clothes
of dusty prison blue
with a flat pan of face
all underground pale
in the morning mirror
eyes there 
the colour of sickly chocolate
taking it all in again
resigned & resilient

a short 
black fringe
straight & clumped & default
with solid white roots
showing underneath
when the train wind blew
& the black hair rose
like a rigid wing
on the commuter platform
among many heavy stares








Wednesday, 8 November 2023

SCENE

 



with the 
opposite heel
he knocked 
a waffle
of bloody snow
off the bottom 
of his boot
in the 
farmhouse bedroom

the grip of meth 
weakening
& letting in the chill
of clothes 
wet from the river
as he packed bags
for the young sisters 
going away







Tuesday, 7 November 2023

HOPE ON ICE




the sadness

is under the ice

i keep the hope on


as i play 

wait & see

in the mad dancing shadow

of the proverbial pan










Friday, 3 November 2023

DOG BARKS IN A SILENT NEIGHBOURHOOD




the hoot of a train horn
funnelled down the grass banks
of litter & scrub & stubs 
&
the movie dialogue 
snappy & truncated 
by channel hoping hope
&
the dog that barks
in a silent neighbourhood
of a teenage sunday
&
the rave whistles 
shrill & bright
on the smoky festival wind
&
the cold hatchback motors 
turning over in coughs
on a frosty workaday dawn

remind me 
of the ambient album
found-sound collages
of the 90s

as opposed to
it working
the other way around







Thursday, 2 November 2023

ANDROID TBD (A MOON WALLPAPER POP)




the 
straw man army
moved to basket
for 
same day delivery
is
shipped off-the-peg ready
at black friday prices
to 
pre-empt the peaceniks first cry


frequently bought together -

NoChat
the debate shutdown
flash card app

ios only
android tbd








Wednesday, 1 November 2023

LUNCH CANNOT SWALLOW




stories
in
the
bones
worth
medals
tell themselves
in the cracks & lumps
of bad heals

& my muscles call for fuel
across the limbic telegraph

joints heavy
like lead
like gravity

in the bubblegum stretch
of a masticated morning
lunch cannot swallow