with my door key i scratch not born to follow into the locker rooms vinyl magnolia paint job its from a song i was young then coffee breaks over and i follow
sometimes its like i wake up all of a sudden and think what the shit am i wearing ? ( two diff clashing camo patterns and an orange check shirt ) or why am i writing about the toilet again ? ( it was NOT teflon in there . . . ) you know ? - cant see the dangerous flames in the sunlight of state approved fame and the shouting newspaper fallout deafens us with agenda in bold font - the grey sea attacks it sucks at the concrete edges and my mind - is so far from home
they called us baby boomers they called us the blank generation they called us generation x etc will they call you generation text ? will they call you generation next ? or evergreen perennials ? meh & bleh ~ they tie us down in buzzwords
in a tagnut tangle blisterpack windows state approved text and sell us clothes with the words on break the mold ? and youll define it even more ~ they give us different pastel shades
they draw clear and invented divisions across our gray shades
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there will be enough time when we are finished and fucked for our thick retrospit to sizzle on the bitesize bonfire of histories bugthick glampsite
grandpa drew pictures in wobbly ballpoint a clicktop parker of him and a cartoonist in hospital together throwing hoops onto each others leg casts the cartoonist did a drawing of a cartoon pig signed it gave it to me years later i live in grandpas house doodling cats and us with fine point
architects pens the doors open gas fire on all its bars
how my meat tower balances itself on hearsay pale legs knees of fire how my water brain builds reality from wallpaper denim blockpaving how the abyss stays beneath the citalopram bath tub dirt line these are things i ponder - ego distraction amateur analysis in an escaping dusk as i haunt familiar avenues with ear phones in and pod on shuffle and no expression at all - foot then other foot is all enough for me noticing railway terraces of old brick closed churches of graffiti boards thin alleys winding up hill dead banks shut eyes new builds vain glass and plastic fencing putting wood out of a job that i hardly really ever noticed before
still in bed at noon cat curled in a circle next to me
his tail covers his back legs his front paws folded his head almost upside down hes snoring gone for a while to a simpler world i got coffee gum comics sunlight on and off theres a neighbour to watch hes retired bored scraping moss out of cement cracks where ever he can find it well if it makes him feel better let him do it and anyway my mind is boiled down into a toy marble far away with plastic waves inside that have no shore to aim for ( and look like new wave lips ) oh yeah i forgot - theres pringles on the night stand too
locals didnt want the swimming pool torn down for a supermarket chain but the swimming pool was torn down and the supermarket chain built its steel and glass
and then duh of course the council stopped the supermarket chain moving in there so the palace sits empty dead
and wind flown seagulls eating market throwaways rest on its stillborn steel and shit down its new glass
i remember having spam as a kid with baked beans i remember the bean juice on the pink meat sometimes it was ok sometimes i would gag now i got a WHOLE folder for spam on my pc and one on my phone whod have thought it ? theyre very full these folders with very crazy stuff sometimes thats ok sometimes it makes me gag anyway these days i hear theres spam drs whod have thought that too ? i remember going phishing too as a kid . . .
the morning called the night a liar as low risk expectations grew higher and the safe blue map spread out redder and somewhere out there i bet theres a cross on fire and here the town crier had never felt so alone and leaving his home he gagged on the news and he gazed at his shoes and he wept he'd not slept and to not have to speak and say he threw his shiny bell away onto a liberals astroturf lawn whod got up early especially to mourn to get used to being invisible and to practice beingconspicuously miserable for when the cameras came and he upped his game with useless analysis and endless words all teal piss and hangover turds in the suitably sad moan of this dimmer switch dawn and the prius on the driveway couldnt have saved us anyway and the town crier found a wetherspoons to pour bombay gin on his wounds and there he sang delta blues for the zero hour shift workers and the unloved sex workers and for all the uncertain lovers and all the worried lovers and all his tinted brothers and all the single mothers and all his turban sisters and all the thirsty children and all the hungry children and all the unborn children whod pop out of the global lottery into plenty or land thats empty and know no other way till their last day and the town crier resigned for the health of his mind he wasnt old he had time to get out there and find somewhere where theres something better to say and whatever and anyway he sang what a fucking day . . . and all the underclass couldnt give an arse business as usual when you live in a urinal and all the trustfund rats and all the fat white cats who followed the freelance piper that acid dream of the gipper had all glued their blinkers on gave up free thinking as one and coughed up and shat out their unleashed desire thats been on a fast in the root cellar and they were calling out 'at last !' knee deep in assassinated bees like canute in rising seas holding up the locker room keys to the rotten empire that balances over a pit of the past on a high wire wobbling in the wind of words only the angry really heard and now its all nuclear breeze and hard rain border walls and arm-stars again and old leaders are suddenly shadows mumbling 'well how could we know ?' and now no ones knows where to go and from out the banished chasm that free speech wouldnt let us fill in had come old school populist manipulation punctuated now with the wet bark of a rapists orgasm as the mad gibbon of armageddon touches all the women when he should be in prison and highbrow derision is no pragmatic solution so lets go to hell but might as well mobilise that liberal army with its printed benevolence and kind artillery and see if that does any good at all anyway