ABOUT A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT

in the drs office
i attempt to

properly absorb her words

but i realise 10 mins in  

i am only intent

on looking 

like i am listening

nodding & lip pursing & going hmmm 

& now all i am thinking
is about this pretence

i am trapped inside of

& that breaks a cold sweat

& i wonder too 

if shes twigged

my accidental pantomime 

or is she on 

rote autopilot

& worrying about her washing

out on the line & limp in the grey

& RISE

think-rolling 

the dog days

over & over

in

the

fitful fermenting fidget

of

another

rotisserie 

night

makes gas in me
i eject now

& rise

getting into it with yoshimi

& the electric rad

CARVERY DESSERT VOL5

you-

youre
too good
too honest
too pure

i am jealous


~


im talking to you
leonard anne william
pablo enerst nick
jim & jack & pat
kurt & all the rest

so often
such perfect 

versions of yourselves
that 

my 

heart becomes afraid


~

must take it all on naked

staying still

only stalls 

disappointment

clothes only cover the scars


~


its no real choice
zen is in the babysteps
the rest in others hands

ONE TRICK PONY PREVIEW #1/3 GUEST POST BY URBAN KISSES

  Things my mind refuses to shake  
  Lime Street station  
  you nervously waiting  
  hands in pockets  
  the rattle of a key chain  
  loose change  
  polite distance  
  long distance  
  the distance between you to me  
  awkward kissing  
  kissing furiously  
  sinking down in an overstuffed sofa 
  sleeping over  
  over thinking  
  everything  
  once again  

LONG PORK BOOTS

theres a thinking machine 

atop my meatstack

i say machine 

could be sickness 

or a deepfake hoax

maybe a burroughs virus

dominating my animal twitch

& theres cotton covered long pork
hanging there underneath my soul

randomly unresponsive
& pendular

making up its own rules
with boots on