hotel steps midtown wired sat on carpet wet from snow it soaks into my jeans and tho i took something to help its just a memory in my liver now ~ meat packing district the playground of kuklinski and yes planting a garden on disused el tracks is a wonderful idea but its winter and its not finished and all there is here for me is my hangover a sense of stressed suspension and a tease of snow ~ diner corner table union square sport on 100 tv screens and i sweat and gag and drool with toxicity and nerves over my grilled cheese and gins i dont want to be anywhere anywhere at all but am impatience to get started ~ its the airport you see and the sky calling for me flight - that thin science in nowhere time it calls for me by name and gate and sucks all and any fermented joy from the last winter-spring new york day
we're not moving i want to shout because it looks like we're not moving the sweet puffball clouds look stationary to me then i see the engine out there hanging off a trembling wing we're moving i want to shout because it looks like we're moving the earth is pulling us back from this impossible angle
the painting of pastel beach huts on the bulkhead mocks me theres beach huts i want to shout . . .
leave a country for another so easy climb into a machine that shoots itself into the high cold black for small cool dinners and microwave hot towels fall down into a sea scape of orange glitter and climb out into a still quiet world a shining sterile labyrinth of teleported bags and show another machine a likeness of your face no one says OI! or WOOHOO! or shakes your hand or even taps you on the shoulder in recognition of this feat at all