FEAR EVEN TO ONCE GLANCE

now

the
system orchestrated mindset

demands rolling explanations

for absence from the day machine

&

it

comes

out

as

a beg / a whine / an excuse

& pleas for understanding

when

i should
be unapologetically ill

a still turning 

burning windmill 

on the overlook hill

sacrificed to home experiments

& slo-mo soft-blazing 

a strange new trail

thru the heart of darkness 

where half the healthy fear 

to even once glance

FOUND LIST 1

tattoo designs

go to the island

citalopram & cat cat

amitriptyline & the windmill

damascus steel & bog wood

new balance

boil eggs

supplemental supplements

photos from the car

photo - Conurbation Hill from the Dagenham Archive

APRIL BLOOMS

bath tap is busted

i lay down
& pretend its not

~

i look at the windmill on the wall

everything is beyond me today

~

&
outside
of here 
aprils blowing 
its own blooms
away

from weatheroakplumbing.co.uk

I AM NOT CERVANTES

am 
i
a
sancho panza ?

  maybe herding
  maybe following
  the 
earths quixotic delusion
     waiting
     on
     some
     concrete gift
i will
never 
understand


or 
am 
i
a
saddled rocinante ? 

  lost in my own
  small
  windmill
  war

  from www.travellingboy.com