gimme a key change that saddens & elates & gimme soft drugs to dream on like a drone pedal sustain & i will mind-paint interpretive dance & weird pop in a gallery of caged paintings by the victorian sea
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artisans scarves
is the theme &
in the sand theyll be gold on fire in the footprints you will follow
rock the sand into the old heave ho pleasure run-off down the estuary string ~ tide signs the stink mud with bait worm punctuation naked causeway ellipsis . . . to kent
and all the bad things i taught myself and all the flat things i said are sand now gone thru the glasses neck for the tide to collect as is ~ ( or leave behind to remind and season on this strange winter beach )
as a kid out on the halfday closing dogshit pavement i would hide behind the parked cars on our dead end street
in a blue and white
supermarket tracksuit
i would twist ankles on the kerb stones and look for rainbows in the spilled oil on the forecourts stony cement we sheltered from the rain in an open garage on this forecourt silver jubilee rain 1977 i was dressed as a cowboy and ate some sand from the floor in there
and where ever the cement was cracked interestingly or the tarmac melted into torn topped waves i thought it was slow earthquakes or lazy volcanoes coming up thru englands ground i hid like the bellisario heroes i saw on tv wishing i had black hair was called john and had all the panini stickers in the world i hid behind granadas and cortinas with vinyl roofs hot to the touch and behind an black opel that seemed exotic then and behind a white work van with LANG written on the side always parked in the penny lane lay-by where the flea dart bushes grew over the pink and yellow patio slabs there was no sad afternoon sun or school morning panic down there where the tires rested on the blacktop and no one was looking for me so i kind of always won and it felt very safe
it keeps her down hides her and we forget the bricks laid in sand and patterns the steel that rises up walls all the walls our hutches of glass and pipe the patchwork quilt for the cars to follow the huge and heavy buildings keep her down hides her