flowers for balance ~ on the radio a classic turns seamlessly into urgent roofs ~ sale the jam sofas im hearing my mass fill out its space in the world
i remember our afternoon empire of the park an unfinished pot holed shithole of blood and animal ignorance our ownership sometimes shattered with the calamity of ambulance tears its gates rusted open then one day gone and another day a great cement circle was laid down the far end for no reason anyone ever knew and there were places there unzoned and feral
i would explore there not allowed to be there collecting stains and i brim now like a pot on a rolling boil with an understanding i cant put in words for the me of me then always looking for famous five adventures in the no mans land of rubble carpet offcuts and burst paint tins the adult throwaways dirty landmarks in the wild growth of pissy nettles and white dog shits hoping for a wall with a door to magic and mystery and escape but even then i knew there was nothing like that a n y w h e r e the biggest question on the street was bikes ? or on foot ? and i wanted to be a spy and i wanted to be a detective and hide behind cars and sneak thru alleys so i did alone and weird kerb stones concrete and tarmac were my low down world of worlds and i would hang it out till the last second before rushing breathless home for tea spam and beans and the pedos on the bbc