what it is is i celebrate teflon turds in my ceramic cathedral my muted fist raised halfway in the impossible fluff factory i photo tv shows click click click bad clay nested on the sofa cushions what it is is i get by in the neon troughs twilight hegemony mind turned both sides up & dopamine hacked or as free at least as my philosophy lets it what it is is five frames a minute in suburbias slow mo ambient guitar rave silicon sediment turned hard memory filtered thru the thick low end heart strings pablo honey in my ginger tea & body butter on my bathroom toast
1. cigarettes fill an existential hole in the madness damn defiance in the face of the fist of the world and a victims journey to heavens core
2. fags are food for soul and mind and theyre death to keep their poetry perfect and complete 3. theres this young guy puffed up and prowling hood up joggers hanging down pants out
sucking on a fag in his fist like wannabe hardnuts do outside the vape lounge used to be a godfreys where i bought my camera hood down trousers up pants in a whole nother world away
4. in the morning smoke comes out and i rise like a common phoenix and perch touching up the wind 5. the smell of match sulphur on the night air
is forever a midwinter bottleshop corner change in my pocket and the day on the run
the estate closed around us like a fist with the night our wine in carriers clinking like warning bells the street empty as curfew boarded-up boozer singing / screaming echoing inside made up our minds cutting short a nervous street piss we backtracked carefully texting GOT LOST / BAILING / APOLOGIES
eyes on the train line above us the distant towers of town and on our 6
theyre tense like grasping a last-order twenty in a sweaty bar nameless and thirsty
why not let the timid light in at moonlight o clock ? the night is still the night
still smells of magic and the stars are still stars shining timid light on precious and gentle somethings and while the world is still the world sneaky fantasy still slips its pretend and ugly covers