when youre walking & youre talking & your voice goes different like an echo like a tomb like some great distance has gatecrashed in & you sound like someone else for a long weird moment but you just walked into a bathroom . . . thats all thats all ? & you sound deeper & you sound flatter the tile ? & then the mirror there its growing you an older mans belly & dragging a lazy hobo beard like a child would draw from out your root vegetable chin door to the future i realise of the humble bathroom doorway door to the future & carefully i dont look anywhere & do what i came to do
i want to breath that blank russian air again want to dwarf myself in eternal foyers too brown to echo want to smell the diesel melt the snow in the imposition streets want to see the grey domino city scrape thru the bad glass twentieth floor windows over a river gone solid where no one skates and count those copper tubes again in the airport as i leave again but that was gorbys days and i was western air supervised around that strange flipside of cold war freeze russias calling- its price chalked on the soles of its awkward evening shoes