1. MAYBE I SHOULD DO A SPREADSHEET i dont know that i could ever be arrogant enough to assume to speak truthfully on my own dim motivations best to reverse engineer my actions to see whats what these days
i am kinda in a place where the lights aint dim and the lights aint bright and i see now i used wrestle them days all wrong but back in them days it was all i could see was right cos back then i decided no future was an easy out and time was nothing just nothing but seriously gnat chuff tight and now time is all there is and i ask it small favours all polite but it still is what it always was endurance rounds in a bare knuckle fight