i am a high tension cable impossibly heavy strung out by design as i tap my bank app and log on my email
~ in these moments i am reminded as powerful as after spring rain of watching Threads at school rare silence / blinds down a level playing field in the classroom for once as we were all shrunk behind our graffiti desks there was no laughter as the people of Sheffield pissed themselves in the street for a month afterwards i expected to see a mushroom cloud grey and rolling and blossom over the maths block blunt concrete every time i turned around ~ well my castle has subsidence i want pizza / lithium / victorian laudanum i whisper cheeseburger organic acupuncture free range tramadol a n y t h i n g ~ and online and outside in the sky or under the ground well there could be something awful there but theres only the regular monsters and we are numb to them numb to them eating us in slices while telling us theyre not ~ it feels like a hungry burmese tiger is stalking me from in the laurel bush it feels like a car boot sniper has crosshairs on my soft cortex it feels like a sudden and All Encompassing Last Draft is in the post and all the church bells will start ringing Any Minute Now to signal the End Of It All