THE FUCKBRAIN HURRICANE (LAST DRINK 2)

so
i
was
cutting down
wasnt i ?
cos of the blackness
screaming nerves
and
loss of buzz

so
in
the 
daytime supermarket
wasnt i ?
with the fish wives
and
lonely men with mum-hemmed jeans

so
i
had
a
basket
of
steak and onions
and
those little wines 
cos
i
was
cutting down PROPERLY
wasnt i ?

no dangerous plummet to nought
for me

but my hands did stuff without me
didnt they ?
gone and got
some
whisky too
hadnt they ?

and
the
orange woman
with 
penciled-in eyebrows
was
bleeping barcodes super slow
wasnt she ?
cos of her disney-painted nails

  but

i wasnt about to put it back
was i ?
have some last hurrah
couldnt i ?

so
it
was
whisky with red wine chasers
wasnt it ?
and
i
called
it
the
Fuckbrain Hurricane 

i suffered blackness
screaming nerves
and
a
raging
 howling
  anti-buzz
that became the clearest 

  Moment 
  Of 
  Clarity

i
ever
ever
known

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