GUTTER ROYALE

kitchen table

orange mug

winter fly

yellow thoughts

& you - 

a full-on adult 

& feeling it for once

are leaden & sodden

with

the 

horrible knowledge & mdf wisdom 

of your decades cheap stockades

gutter royale

moon & all

SOME MORE MONDAY POPS

your
anecdotal
duff hand grenade
scrape

does not match

my 
napalm
nerve scorch


~


bars
are wooden

creak like boats
at sea

adventure
in both

rum in hand


~


i am adult

if the child 
who survives
pilot lights & afterburn

is adult


~


theres
an
out of tune piano
on dolphin avenue

binmen play it

one day
its gone


~


in 
a
supermarket tshirt
&
a primark hat

i present myself

to
bureaucracys
willful
blindspot


~


with 
age
comes
a
wisdom & maturity

a VIEW

that doesnt 
help anything


~


all roads
lead to
the stage

& then the loading zone

all the
world
is an 
island

in the sea

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ITS NOT CODEINE ITS COLA

like an opium dream
i
become
magnanimous and inflated
with 
a
great
global
empathy

for orphans 
empire
and the general 
on
the
run

i feel it pulsing
from out my ribcage
like the rko tower
before an old film rolls

i feel like a communications satellite
i feel like a minor god

till the height gets to me

then i taste the taste
like cola tasted
when
we
were
young
and just looking 
for a wall
to
climb

to see if 
there was tv adventure
or abandoned porn
waiting
down
on
the
other side

from secondhand-prop-shop.co.uk

EXISTENTIAL POPS 2

A SIGH

might as well carry on

yes

ok then

lets
carry
on



VICARIOUS PIE IN THE VOYEUR CAFE

i talked myself down

back from the crowded edge

and
sat
in 
the 
Worlds gift shop cafe
with
bitter coffee & stale cake

the
circus looks SO rich
from
the
cheap 
seats

when youve nothing left to loose


ADULT

i am an adult

i look like one

i
am
a 
simmer of anxiety / illness
contradictions / doubt
&
exterminated
prejudice

when 
i was a child
id look at adults 
        at their extra hair
                 used up eyes
                 huge shoes
                 &        
        smell their alien smell

were
they
all
a
simmer
of existential soup
too ?

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