LONELY CONVERSATION REHEARSAL

stretched on the sheets before dawn
with the milk float drone intro to the songbirds
or
curled under the quilt way after dusk
with cab doors slamming after drunks stumbling
my
mind runs thru inevitable conversations

playing all roles
keeping outcomes limited and realistic

like 
sick-time work meetings
and
three-pronged drs appointments
and
that thing to bring up about that thing 
thats best to do in the car 
getting that ride
to that place, wednesday
and
work-chat weekend anecdotes

and when its out of me
and happening
in the limelight of grease paint time
it
seems
to
me
like
no one else bothered rehearsing at all